Thursday, January 31, 2013

A change is coming.....or is it?

I just got off the phone with the kids mom.  She was all excited speaking in glowing terms about the facility where she is staying. She was telling me that she was learning all kinds of things about herself and her issues.  She said that she is really changing for the better and that she knows that this time this is it.  She told me about her counselor, how smart he is, how he is a hypnotist, a hand writing analyzer, smart, etc etc....her savior it seems.  Sounded good until she said, " I want to be the best mom I can be...I hope (kids dad) can be the best he can be too".

That was the kicker! She had just told me that she was through with him; "kicked him to the curb", that he was an abuser and that she would never have anything to do with him ever again.  I have heard this story before. From her....from eaves-dropping at the drug court that I seem to frequent all too often.  It's always the same story, just a different face.  Mom seems to start "getting it" but the co-dependency of the significant other has a strong hold.  How long before (dad) is back in the picture.  I really think that possibly Mom might have a shot at getting her kids back but NOT if (dad) comes back in the picture.

Time will tell if this is a "real deal", if change is truly coming.  I pray that it's true but in my heart of hearts I don't expect it.  I've come to love these kids too much to feel comfortable sending them back to a dead-end life.  The stories Ive heard that would curdle your did mine...this is not the life that I want for these precious children of God.
I rest in the peace of knowing that God loves them even more than we do.  I have no other option.  It's hard.

You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you.
                                        Isaiah 26:3